Sentimentality

Well here I go, delving into the deep dark places of my soul. Maybe clear out some cobwebs...its been a while since I've been in there. Hopefully nothing moved in while I was away! I'm not exactly the most communicative person there is but I suppose it's good to share now and again. This last week I went with my mom to pick up the kids from school and we had to stop at a neighbors to drop something off and Quinci ran in. As she ran in I could not believe how big she was!! She wasn't a little child anymore. In that moment as I watched her run, in her fashionable clothes and hip hair, she grew up. Memories flooded back of her growing up. I couldn't help but miss the chubby little baby she was, watching her learn to walk, talk, read, write. It was more than I could bear!! But at the same time I love the girl she has become! I turned to my mom and said, "They shouldn't be allowed to grow up. I can't handle it!" Just wait, you thought that was sappy, it gets better! Later that night I was doing something with Britta and she ran out and came back with a blank piece of paper on a book and a pen and said, "Ammon, what do you want to do for your birthday?" I listed off a few things and as I said things she would 'write' them down and say something like, "Ya, that's a good thing." or "I don't think we can do that." Wow, I don't know what happened, something must have gotten in my eye, I could not handle it! It was so cute! she continued to ask the rest of the family and 'wrote' down their answers. She, like my Quinci was growing up! My two little girls were grown up! Man am I sentimental or what?! What am I gonna do when they are my own kids?! I gotta get a grip on myself, I'm falling apart at the seams!